I don't know if anyone reads this anymore, but I feel the urge to tell everyone!
I faced down one of my biggest fears, and I came out on top!
And now, for the first time in 30 years, I find my back beautiful.
That's right, I got inked!
Tattooed, marked, branded!
And it's beautiful! and I didn't even tear up or freak out at all! In fact, I almost fell asleep!
I feel like such a bad ass!
(for anyone interested, it's an Egyptian cartouche on my right shoulder blade. Just straight black for now. It was my birthday present from my amazing husband.)
maybe will post a pic later if i remember.
gonna go squee more!!!!
of a decidedly better nature than I've had in a while!
First off, I may actually have a job if a friend of mine can pull a few strings with her manager! Oh please oh please oh PLEASE let that happen!
Secondly, actually comes in two parts... I've found a new series of books to sink my brain into (the Wheel of time series by Robert Jordan) and I get to read them on my brand new shinny nook! Which Rage got me as a very belated X-mas present because I couldn't find any fancy nice earrings I liked.
I fucking love this thing!!!
Thirdly, and this is a little odd, Rage's mom is actually starting to treat me like one of her "Kids", which means that she has at least mostly accepted me. I am still trying to get used to her way of handling things, but it's good! (as rage said earlier today, I have to keep remembering that my family is the weird ones. For any of you out there that have seen Christopher Titus's "Love is evol" stand up... My family is the one his inner retard is talking about. 'They support each other with love and kindness... back away slowly.' lol)
Also, had Rage's friend from the army Bunnie down for the whole weekend to celebrate his 30th birthday. I think he had a lot of fun. At least, I did my damnedest to make it as good of a weekend as I could. I'm running on empty after all of that, but his smile makes it worth it.
OK, OK, I'm running on well below empty. Still worth it. :)
Like I said... a decidedly better post. Of course there are still the annoyances, and the minor catastrophes, but I think I'm at least starting to figure out how to handle them with only minor breakdowns.
Oh, and there's an update I haven't given in a long time. I haven't had a massive panic attack in a long while, a few months at least. Still have the minor ones, but I'm trying to accept that that's just how my brain works now.
I'm not even really sure if anyone still reads this thing.
In an odd way, that's almost comforting.
I suppose a brief update is in order.
1. Married life is amazing. Granted, not much has truly changed, but hearing my last name, and checking the 'married' box on forms is still a thrilling experience. I don't think that will ever stop.
2. Been working a lot on things that I feel I need to change about myself to become the person I want to be. Getting over a lot of fears. Trying very hard not to let the OCD rule my life. I personally think I've made a lot of progress. I know it will never completely go away, but if I can make it "background noise", that will be enough for me.
3. Been unemployed for a year now. That is something that I really dislike. All the idle time is making it hard for me to keep my mind from wandering. What would I do without video games and RPGS?
4. Still coming to terms with the fact that people leave, places change, life keeps going. And that attempting to stop any of it really pisses time off, and it speeds up till I feel left behind by all of the changes. That one's still really hard.
So, all in all, life has been going fairly well. And the next big adventure is just around the corner.
It's also kind of funny, but I'm glad I don't know what's coming next. I can't run away from it or be afraid of something I have no comprehension of.
That's all for now.
"May the laughter dull the pain"
Are you happy now?
we've been snowed in since 5:00pm Tuesday.
like, 3 foot drifts in front of the door snowed in.
There are places in our little apartment complex where the snow is almost over the garage roofs!
I managed to get out and save my car only an hour ago.
up to 26 inches in some places near here... I think we hit 23.
we're done now, right???
nope... another blizzard is coming on Friday.
batten down the hatches!
and whomever prayed for the snow....
Wishing you all out there in live journal land a wonderful new year!
see you all next year!
and everything was perfect.
still basking in the after glow.
should have pictures by next week!
Rage is out of the shower now
so I'm gonna go snuggle with my husband (!!!) some more.
I promise a much more cohesive post later!!!
(Only one week left till I'm a Mrs.!!!)